One of the unlucky ones

“I guess you’re just one of the unlucky ones”

Cramping, slowly working it’s way from my lower abdomen to my back.

Get the heating pads.

Then down my legs.

“Dammit. It’s okay. You’ve got this, deep breaths Taylore. You can do it” I say to myself.

Instantly sweating- the cramping intensifies.

Time to take an opioid.

The nausea sets in.

“F****ck. No, It’s okay. You can do it, the pain killer will set in soon. Focus on your breath”

Cramping intensifies. Beads of sweat roll down my face.

Text Garret to let him know shits about to go down and that I might need him or need him to send someone.

Run to the bathroom.

“Time to buckle down. You can do it”

Vomiting… excessive, forceful vomiting.

My body starts to shake.

Take another opioid.

Cramping intensifies.

More heat on my abdomen, back and legs. And yet still so much sweat all over the rest of my body.

I start to loose my vision and the rest of my body starts to contract.

“Focus on your breath Taylore. You can do it. It won’t last forever. You can do it.”

More vomiting…. more cramping…

Finally it starts to subside. I can make it to the floor in the living room and set up camp for the rest of the day. Anytime I try to stand- I almost pass out. It’s hard for me to keep my eyes open.

The pain comes and goes. Luckily the vomiting is no more.

This happens every month. Every cycle. Since I first started menstruating.

I’ve heard:

“I guess you’re just one of the unlucky ones”

“It might get better when you have a kid. If it doesn’t then we can do something”

“You should get pregnant, that would fix it”- yes… and actual MD told me that when I was in emergency one cycle.

The western medical system has failed me greatly on this one. All I get are opioids and suggestions that I should get pregnant. Hormone therapy doesn’t work. Opioids barely help. And no exams or blood work show anything.

Subconscious imprinting did help though. No, this issue is obviously not totally resolved yet. AND it’s coming along.

It’s less time now and that in itself is amazing.

I have done some very intense healing through subconscious imprinting with my uterus and these insane cycles.

When nothing else worked- hormone therapy, opioids, herbs, acupuncture, chiro, reiki, massage, naturopath, exercise, diet therapy, Cannibis, etc…

Subconscious Imprinting helped.

Why? Because this is all emotional and generational trauma I am holding in my uterus.

I refuse to accept that I am “just one of the unlucky ones”

I am lucky because I have a therapy like Subconscious Imprinting. I am lucky because I am healing generational traumas that won’t continue on. I am lucky because I have learnt to love how powerful my body really is. And I am lucky because I have hope that I wont live like this forever.

My body takes me down, expectedly yet unexpectedly every single month. I have to cancel patients, miss classes or events.

And yet I am GRATEFUL ,

I am grateful my body is telling me in such a powerful way that I still have more to work on.

I am grateful that I can see the beauty in the situation,

and I am grateful that I have learnt to not “power through” and really spend time digging up that old deep generational trauma that no one has dealt with.

What is your body telling you?

And are you willing to be vulnerable enough to listen to it?

Anger.

Anger isn’t a bad thing. Often, we demonize it when really, anger is a healthy, normal emotion. It helps to move energy in the body. It only becomes a problem if you’re living in a constant state of anger and/or not letting yourself express anger in a healthy way.

I was such an angry kid, and didn’t know how to express my it. I would throw toys, scream, cry, and in my room alone I’d pull my hair or hit my bed. I didn’t understand that I was actually sad or scared of being vulnerable, I just knew I felt an intense sensation bubbling up in my body and had to physically release it. At age 12 my body couldn’t handle all the anger and inflammation in my body any more – that’s when I was diagnosed with Ankylosing Spondylitis. Then, as I grew older I began my healing journey and tried to push down all my anger – because ‘it’s not spiritual to get angry’ I thought. I thought anger was a bad emotion that should never be felt. It wasn’t until only a few years ago that I finally began to understand what a healthy relationship with anger is.

 

What happens IN your body?

Anger results from the relationship between the limbic system (the center of emotions inA291C7BE-5173-49F7-8DE0-4CBD1CF7F4B3 the brain), the sympathetic nervous system (fight/flight/freeze responses), and the consciousness (how people think about or perceive an event). “…When the emotional brain receives information from the part of the brain that perceives an impending threat, it sends signals to the body using biochemicals called neurotransmitters. These chemicals communicate by telling the body to respond to the threat.”(1). When the Central Nervous System gets the message of ‘DANGER’ it triggers a release of hormones into the bloodstream.

When you think about anger as responding to a threat, it makes it more understandable that anger is simply an armour emotion. Usually the underlying emotion of anger is sadness, vulnerability, or fear. Our body is simply using anger to protect us. This is what causes people to fight to protect their beliefs and lives.

What happens TO your body?

  1. Increased chance of Stroke and Heart Attack.
    1. “There is a higher risk of cardiovascular events shortly after outbursts of anger.”(3)
    2. Dr. Chris Aiken, MD speaks about how both repressed anger and excessive anger can double your chances of coronary disease. “Constructive anger — the kind where you speak up directly to the person you are angry with and deal with the frustration in a problem-solving manner — is not associated with heart disease,” says Aiken.
  2. Decreased Immune System and Increased Inflammation
    1. A study showed that there was a six-hour dip in levels of the antibody immunoglobulin A, the first line of defence against infection.
  3. Decreased Life Span.
    1. A University of Michigan study done over a 17-year period found that couples who hold in their anger have a shorter life span than those who readily say when they’re mad.

To move into a healthy relationship with anger,

  1.  You first need to be able to identify what you get triggered by.
  2.  Realize your anger in no one else’s fault.
  3. Then CHOOSE to take a breath, and check in with yourself. Ask yourself:
    1. “Why am I angry?”
    2. “What emotion am I actually feeling/How do I feel unsafe?”
    3. “Do I want to be angry?”

Maybe that last questions seems weird to ask yourself. You might be saying “If I could choose not to be angry I obviously wouldn’t be angry then…” Well guess what, you can choose! And sometimes you might choose not to be angry and sometimes you might choose to be angry – and that’s okay too.

**keep in mind, just because you have the right to be angry, doesn’t mean you have the right to be cruel**

When you start to realize and feel comfortable with the idea that you aren’t a victim to your anger and you don’t have to choose anger, a whole new world is available to you. Anger is an amazing defence mechanism, it has protected you – give it some gratitude. And how can you truly heal if you don’t tear down that defence mechanism and deal with your actual emotions?

Now its up to you, what will you choose?

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(1)https://drkarynewilner.com/2016/06/11/the-biological-base-of-anger/

(2)https://www.everydayhealth.com/news/ways-anger-ruining-your-health/

(3) https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/24591550

Four Agreements

Subconscious Imprinting

I am so excited to introduce you all to a new treatment option I will be offering. Subconscious Imprinting!

“Subconscious Imprinting Technique is one of the quickest and most effective ways to discover and remove subconscious beliefs, decisions and patterns that are negatively influencing your life.” – The Empowered Healers Academy

 

 

Who will benefit:

Literally everyone. If you have ever experienced any of the following, Subconscious Imprinting might just be what you need.

  • Chronic pain, illness, anxiety, insomnia, depression
  • Childhood trauma
  • Death of a loved one
  • Feel like you aren’t living up to your full potential or being your true self
  • Hard time trusting yourself
  • Carry on patterns from your parents
  • Sexual abuse
  • Addictions or substance abuse
  • PTSD
  • Weak boundaries – hard time saying No
  • Hard time controlling your moods – easily triggered
  • Feeling like you don’t ever have enough money or tend to attract debt
  • Toxic or experience conflict in relationships (romantic, business, family)

What a Subconscious Imprinting session will look like:

Quite similar to a Bars and/or Acupuncture treatment, we will start the treatment off with chatting a bit about what brings you in. Then, through muscle testing I will discover the root cause of your main concern. We will chat a bit more about the root and then go into some clearing statements. The clearing statements are to clear the subconscious mind and reprogram it.

What is Subconscious Imprinting:

Subconscious Imprinting reaches the subconscious mind and helps reprogram it. Every reaction we have is a learned behaviour – our subconscious mind is so extremely powerful. We can reprogram the subconscious mind to destroy and uncreate physical and emotional pain, limitations, and unhealthy patterns.

From the age of 7, a lot of our judgments and patterns have already been made. Traumas, beliefs and memories have started to create our core identity – how we perceive ourselves to be whether consciously or subconsciously. These will influence our entire adult lives.

Research has found that suppressing emotions is associated with a variety of health conditions including and not limited to; autoimmune diseases, heart disease, ulcers, IBS, etc. When the body is stressed, cortisol levels spike which then increase your heart rate, decrease your immune system, increase toxic thinking patterns, poor memory, increased inflammation, and decreased digestion.  “This pain acts as a distraction from the anger, fear, or rage you don’t want to feel or think about. The pain essentially acts as a lid, keeping unwanted emotions from erupting” – Dr. John Sarno.

The body literally never forgets, once an emotion has been suppressed it can later be triggered and can bring you back to the original trauma. Over and over again… “It doesn’t matter if it’s physical, spiritual, or emotional – 99% of the time, there’s an energetic component that is rooted in the subconscious mind that must be “reprogrammed” in order to create a new reality” – Empowered Healers Academy Practitioner Manual.

You can now book Subconscious Imprinting sessions online! 

For more information, you can email or text me. Info.tsacupuncture@gmail.com/403.741.8898